stream of life

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Im bored now. finding things to say. actually there are many many things that i want to say. but its time for me to type. i've forgot what wanted to say. aiya. awww. so tired. feeling like sleeping. but waiting for someone. hmmm. hei. i dunno wad happen to my exams. fail? did'nt know anything. no use going back school to see. let it be a past bah. let myself born again this coming birthday. a new life. a new living. should forget everything. mm will not appear anymore after that day. maybe smth would change next time? dunno. everything dunno. is the best. always use to talk to all my mei last time. but not now. everything was so quiet. shut from the earth. more and more bad things coming towards me. wo hai le hen duo ren. how? i made lots of ppl cry. angry. and sad. but im glad that all of u are happy to see me now. there is some ppl. missing the past. no use thinking. only wasting of ur time. seriously everything change alot alot. even me. all my friends. my family. soon.. broken family. maybe? hiaz! no use thinking rite. haha. onli rmb happy happy happy and happy! smile always. no more hate. started with you. hate comes to me. and let me do all the bad things. hmmm. washed away. i love being zi bi. dun u find it fun? imagine alone walking around the world without bringing ur brain and heart. no feeling! how good is it! im hopeless. i need ppl to encourage me to do things! how could this happen. talk to me. if not u will think im dead. dont think too much girl. everything will be alright. onli can be happy. when u talk to me. i will not hurt you and i do not want. i will try my best to make u happy. smile is the thing i want from you.(: i will be by ur side. tell me u love me. if you are. i wont leave u alone. i know wad to do now. erm. think back. i onli did my english paper. finding chance to thank my teacher? she care for me so much. and had became a friend of my mum.hmmm and i keep ignore her everytime. i know is sad for u to see one of ur student like this. even the school cant help me. cos i did not want to say out my problems. want to see my school for the last time? will i continue to study. still thinking. bu ke yi bu du shu. everyone are telling me. no need to try to understand me. cos you wont. i like to make myself complicated. ^^ and i change my mind everytime. but not in love love love. woainiwoainiwoaini!? yes la. i love you. haha. forgot you because of your him. i hate him! haha! DDDDDreaming! plus Hpynosis!!! let me sleep. im shy to find you girl. okay.

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